enter the fogged

yarg...

2005-09-01T18:13:00.000+08:00

okay i've decided against the public blog thingy...
cant be bothered *puh~*
and my hands just need to type crap
will probably just make a site for my engelx...hah
well...exams are round the corner...
well clappity clap clap...
or so says my brain doing riverdance in my skull
well...went out with ann on sun
we squealed,bitched,quibbled,shook our arses and
made a public nuisance of ourselves
fantastic day~
I NEED TO DRAW SOMETHING!!!
but i cant...
the exam monsters are tightening their grip on my windpipe
bleeaaargh.... #$%!...
(and other unimaginable words too terrible to describe)
and i need to train for rockclimbing agn..
oh how i miss the feel of the fibreglass walls...
*scritch scritch*
anyhoos...
all this crap things about this being a public blog will b scraped soon...
and a new site will emerge...*coos~*
so pardon the eyesore for a while more yea?
take care friends!
all all the best with the upcoing semester exams...
peace...

gay spiderman

2005-08-30T08:44:00.000+08:00

heh busy studyin fer the exams...no time to draw comics...sobz...
so yea...decided to just share this gif with you all...;p

Mah latest deviantart submission...did this last week;p

a simple sketch

2005-08-22T19:35:00.000+08:00

hmm...let's just say my mind wandered while i was studying...heh...
saw sumthin like this at deviantart...
had ta draw it (itchy fingers)

uh...wat...?

2005-08-22T14:42:00.000+08:00

hey i was sick tt day k...meh...

those darn hornets

2005-08-12T13:34:00.000+08:00

seems someone disturbed a hornets nest over at Bedok resevoir...
and they swarmed the flats there...yeeesh...
Apparently it was so bad ppl couldn't open their windows...wow...

climb on 2005

2005-08-10T18:36:00.000+08:00

i swear to ya i din know that damn camera was there...

im baaaaaaaaack...

2005-08-09T22:54:00.000+08:00

whoa...bin a long time since i last blogged...
today's national day...
as ann puts it...
happy national sodding day....
trained a bit,
did some work,
watched the parade and made fun of ppl on tv
tt's abt it...

just fnished the boulderin com on sunday haha
abt the com...
to be cont on mah nxt blog...hehe toodles

and oh yea...ann did this on me
supposed tob me in a few years
kewl yea? lolx
thnx loads babe!!! ^ ^

exam zombies

2005-07-07T17:57:00.000+08:00

one more day

2005-07-07T16:40:00.000+08:00

okay...
last day of studying for the week
tomorrow's the day of the last paper
currently suffering from a disease most students face near the
end of every test/exam

brainicuss mortem:
an illness that plagues the young minds od students worlwide
where the brain ceases to function and absorb anymore knowledge
(a.k.a crap school's want us to learn)
due to the current anticipation of freedom after the test paper.

and forcing my hypthalamus to keep awake.
and i've just come o the realisation that i am a compulsive blogger.
i dislike not blogging for more than 2 to 3 days
proof?
well... this is test week and im still bloggin arent i?
"hi my name's Deborah and i am a compulsive blogger''
fine
go ahead
laught damn you
ons day its gonna happen to you too huh!

doom doom doomy doom doom

2005-07-04T17:35:00.000+08:00

oh.... .... crap
crap crap crappity crap
i had to get gastric flu during term test week
spent the day sleeping woohoo
im doomed
doom doom doomy doom doom
ahahaha...:x
oh well will just qiong fer the rest of the papers
yea!
to every1 there
all the best fer term tests guys!
:)
kk i gtg study
btw tomo maths
my head is swarming with figures...
;p

term tests!!!! aaaaaaaaaah!

2005-07-02T20:10:00.000+08:00

term tests are next week!!!
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.... ...
*gurgle*
so much to study
so little time
all thanks to... ...
*jeng jeng jeng*
P-R-O-C-R-A-S-T-I-N-A-T-I-O-N
that wonderful 'P' word
hope i dont fail
please oh god oh god let me pass
then for the next exam i'll consider higher standards
and my printer is cracking up on me
stupid printer
if i had a sledgehammer... ...

seriousely it drives me nuts
especially when i have an assignment...like now...

printer:(normal)
printer: xrkxlkgrglkxgr...
me:wad da...
printer:*chka chkachka..* xklrjlkxrlk....(stops)
me: stupid printer!
printer:(dead)
me:work damn you!!!
(hits printer)
me:aaaaaaaargh..!!!!
me:i give up...
printer: *chkahkcahkc..*
me:f*** you!
printer: (prints normally)

i think the damned thing has a mind of its own
machines hate me
its not my fault machines hate me
*pouts*
ah...
better go finish my studyin...
stress is getting to me...
the cornified layer of my epidermis is particularly
lacking hydrogen monoxide...

...

damn you chemistry...

2005-06-24T00:25:00.000+08:00

haha life's bin good
so many things i thank the Lord for
Life's tough but we make through t all in the end...
:)
ppl may not be true and sins come through now and then
but i am not forsaken
for i have found an everlasting friend in God
im glad for that
sometimes
we just need a hard knock to the head to wake ourselves up

and also
i've realised
how true friends are hard to some by
friends come and go
for those who've stayed by me
through tears and laughter
thank you
for being in my life
for all my friends
thank you for just being there
:)

no matter what
i will never let the worst get a hold of me
no matter how tough things get
no matter what life throws at me
i will remain strong

may the tough times only make me stronger
and never break me
may my heart still remain
no matter how cruel life can be

for those who are struggling with life too
we all are
dont give up
dont back down
everything will work out in the end...

2005-06-21T23:41:00.000+08:00

see no evil...say no evil...hear no evil...

spastic twists...

dig nose!dig nose! eeeyer....

hand attack!!!

poke poke poke

our shoes..(JY,KC,Hilda..me)

rawrrr..rawwrrr! *BANG!)

newborn

2005-06-21T13:46:00.000+08:00

(this song was released on my b-dae..harhar...MUSE!!!!squee....i luv MUSE! ^ ^)

NEWBORN

Link it to the world
Link it to yourself
Stretch it like a birth squeeze
the love for what you hide
The bitterness inside
is growing like the newborn

When you've seen,seen
too much
too young,young
Souless is everywhere

hopeless time to roam
the distance to your home
fades away to nowhere
unstoppable

'cause you've seen,seen
too much
too young,young
Souless is everywhere

Destroy the spineless
show me its real
wasting our last chance
to come away
just break the silence
Cause' im drifting away
away from you...

mixed nuts

2005-06-20T21:20:00.000+08:00

haha
watch out ppl
you may be next
wahahaha
hehehe...
MUAHAHAHA!!!!!!
*ahem*

equality brudda....

2005-06-19T19:04:00.000+08:00

The human race is interesting...
though we are of the same species
why do we mock those slightly different from ourselves?
recently read this blog
about how ppl of 'white skin' are of the superior race
since when did colour determine our worth?
i have been to London
and have been mocked at
Why?
im chinese

not saying London's a horrible place to go to
its a wonderful place full of wonderful ppl
its just the few buggers like these who screw things up
oh well
Some look down on those who are dark skinned
why?
we have been given the gift of being intellectually superior
to the other species
yet we judge by skin colour?
have you ever seen black chickens being outcast
by the white?
even animals are more humane in that sense!

also..it seems its human nature to be selfish
survival of the fittest as they call it
but seriousely
there's a thin line tt seperates being strong -minded
and just plain stubborn
i cant say tt im not selfish
i am
and im spoilt too
and im not proud of tt

but sometimes we have to learn to put others before ourselves
and realise tt we are blessed in more ways then one
how often do we take for granted the clothes we own
the food tt is laid out for us everyday
transport
shoes
education
everything... ...
how often do we appreciated the simple things in life
like having all 4 working limbs for example
family
friends
shelter... ...
we always want more

the 2 words..''want'' & ''more''
it brings us down

its gd to strive for what we want...
but seriousely
do not make a mountain out of a molehill
appreciate all you have
life's too short to just let it pass
live out to your fullest
look on the brighter side of things
u'll realise life's not as miserable as you think

yes we do encounter difficulties and obstacles in life
but that is how we learn
and grow
we learn from our mistakes
in the end..our experiences mold us into who we will become
to me

everything tt happened was meant to be
God has his plans for me
let his will b done
though there are times i gripe and whine

i am constantly learning the right way to live life
we never stop learning
until the very day we pass on...

at this moment
i just pray i have the strength to keep on going
things will get better
and for my friends
im always here to help if you need me

im praying for you guys
who know who you are
*hugz*
:)

peace out

P.S:if my ranting pissed any1 off... i am so sorry..pardon me

id hate to be a mouse @ dis pt of time...

2005-06-18T23:04:00.000+08:00

just came to a realisation
not everyone is what they seem to be
for me...
well...
i seem to be nice and cheery everyday...
but i believe every1 has a personal... different side of them
one that is only reserved for the quiet moments within themselves
for me...
im not as nice and cheery as i seem always
i am no pushover for one thing

everday i think to myself
how i must achieve things tt i want
yet how i want to dwell deeper into the dark side of me
ever seen the things i draw?
they are part of the other side of me
freaky it seems
to the eyes of some
but oh well
you cant please everybody

i keep listening to others problems
i dont like seeing my friends sad
and will do what i can to help
but when is it my turn?
sometimes im even too ashamed or shy to reach out for help
i'll just sit there and smile...
oh well...
things will get better rite?

no matter wad i'll alwayz be there 24-7 for a friend i need
but sometimes i literally feel as if im going
to collapse...felling faint... groggy...dazed
i have no idea why
i have my job,school,piano exams,church stuff and
my parents to worry about
i want to give my parents a gd life
but i keep getting beaten down by their words
i cant blame them
i know they're worried for me
somehow i get through everyday

thank gdness God's here always...
or else i'd never make it
im not the only person in this world with problem

and seriousely
no one but God knows me through and through
not even my best friend
i usually never show my other side
but this time...
i'll let part of it show
one thing i've learnt
is to count your blessings
look around
everyone has their own stuff going on
be happy with what you have
you are blessed in many ways you'll notice...

the world isnt black and white
its a whole spectrum of colours
look beyond the greys for once wont ya

i decided to slack for once during lecture...
why i drew this..i have no idea
its called
''appearances are deceiving''
look at the cross
go figure

so so freakin long...

2005-06-16T09:21:00.000+08:00

okaaay...bin a while since i was this happy.... hahaha..ha
HA!
(whacks self)
im in skl nw...
there must be sumthin in the air causing this unexplainable insanity...
its called 'no-parents-naggin-ozone'

touche...
not saying tt my parents are horrible buggers tt abuse me ..
they're really nice but hard to handle tt's awl
*grinz*
anyway...
yea..bin copin..
was so bored yest i called ann..
as usual the greetin was wrm
ME: hey ann
ANN:DEBBY!!!
ME:haha long time no see...chat...ya
ANN: WAHAHA!!! arghargharghaeerawa....
ME:...

something like tt...
btw i find my biochem lecturer so amusin and cute in a
cartoon character kinda way
his voice is so wonderfully vibrant it puts insomniacs to sleep
but he puts in the owrds 'k' at all the wrong places...
T-CHER:erm..k...today we will study the DNA k... like you see you
put the k...her

put the k here????
we have alphabets in our chromosomes?!
oh my freakin gawd!

-_-
can you imagine the chaos he'll cause teaching the alphabet?
A.B..C...k...D...E...F...kk...k...G....
let's have barney the purple dinosaur sing that shall we?
yea... have 3 tests today btw...
like woo!!!
(twirls finger in air)

teachers can be sadists sometimes...
and since im a self-proclaimed sadist and i'vebin a teacher before
i prove this theory correct
oh well..
all the best to awl!

hope i survive one more month of this crazy schedule of mine...
i noe i'll be frustrated and depressed by the things im told
and the pressure agn
its a sick cycle
and i hate cycling...

peace out

...

2005-06-09T22:46:00.000+08:00

And I'd give up forever to touch you

Cuz I know that you feel me somehow

You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be

And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment

And all I can breathe is your life

Cuz sooner or later it's over

I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me

Cuz I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming

Or the moment of truth in your lies

When everything feels like the movies

Yeah, you'd bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me

Cuz I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me

Cuz I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me

Cuz I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

2005-06-05T00:31:00.000+08:00

hmmm... loads of stuff goin on...
but coping...
haha
hopefully one day my parent swill accept the fact tt i've changed so much
tt i not the rebellious teen i used to be when i was 13...14...15...
yea
i will succeed one day
for now i'll keep on going
haha
cant sleep properly though
just...
haiz
was tired yest..din play piano ...
got hell from my parents
wish i'd get some slack from them
they keep thinking im playing..im not
i dont even watch tv
and im using the com for notes for gdness sake...
not all for play
i train in the mornings b4 skl...and during breaks
(for rockclimbing)
then the whole day spent at poly
aft poly..go to work
come home,play piano,do homework...study
use the com..sleep
everyday
i had to cancel goin to a fren's concert tday...
and i still have to pay for the ticket
y?
come home and study.. they threatened to not pay for my piano fee's
when i start earnin my own money i can stop listeing to these threats
im so sick of all the things they use to threaten me
i feel like a caged bird
too much stuff happening to list all here
haha
hmm...
all my close frens noe
pray for me u guys
and thnx... if u awl weren't arnd...
i dont think i'd be who i am today... thanks...

yes you are...

...

2005-06-01T23:27:00.000+08:00

happy.. i think

yayz!

2005-05-29T21:11:00.000+08:00

today was a really fun day...
had cg...singin...
then went out for a movie and lunch haha
me,ann,audz,jesh,chris,paul,glenn and calvin took a bus to
cineleisure to bk a movie
but then it rained really heavily & we were all trapped ;p
great timing... but we still managed to have fun :)
we ate at LJ's
then halfway through jesh went to ''toilet''
then a while later ann went too...
then they both came back with a bag fer me..haha
thnx to awl!!! * big hugz!* :)
really needed a bag cause mine had a hole..thnx fer noticin :)
then got a choc bar frm ann too haha
many ppl msg me and remembered my bdae
so happy
my parents too :)
they were gd today
usually every1 dont know my birthday
i feel so blessed to have such great friends
thanks a lot guys!
its the best bdae i've had in yrs *hugz*
then watched madagascar...
cute and funny a must watch
its gd to relax once in a while and let the inner child in you have fun
:)
yea..then my mum bought clothes for me
lost weight so my pants all falling
bought cd's...
yea...
i've nv had so much fun in a long time...
so happy tt i have grt friends and grt parents...
everything will be alright in the end
i'll nv give up...
thanks for all ur prayers and support
:)

oh fine... fine thank you...

2005-05-24T23:55:00.000+08:00

overloaded...

pressurized...

parents not helping...

everything will soon work out...

perserverence man!!!!

wooooooo!!!!!

*twirls finger in air*

....

...
......
*sigh*

hmmm...

2005-05-14T21:54:00.000+08:00

hmmm... today well... same ol'..same ol'
wake up
play piano
training
lunch
study
church
home
.
.
.
.
.
like...
whoopdidoo.... (twirls finger in air)
my life has become so routine exciting would mean
changing the brand of my toothpaste
wow
maybe i should do sumthin outrageous and like
sleep on my bed facing the wrong way then

...

well...
at the moment im studying and pract my piano,guitar and viola...
training for climbing
must lose weight for it too...(bah!)
and...
yay!
skl starts the week aft next!
excitingman...
cant wait haha...
i think nxt week i'll go shopping for poly...hehe
^^
lalalala....
la

.
.
.
.
*ahem*

the balance

2005-05-12T23:11:00.000+08:00

okkk... ...nid to put another entry to balance up e last blog
i cant get over e fact it sounded like a bad punk rock pop song
by simple plan or sumthin
spare me
*shudder*
anyways yea...
(think funny thoughts think funny thoughts... ...)
:x
waaaaaaahahahaha!
ok nvm...

hope tt was inuf antertainment for u awl...
gd nite...

spiral down

2005-05-12T22:39:00.000+08:00

well... the usual...
im a misunderstod teenager...
yes yes tt sounds so punk rock...(dont remind me)
my dad's wonderful mood swings...agn...
like an irritated hippo with pms
he's worried and all yea...
and i know he had a traumatising childhood...
he has so much bitterness inside of him tt i dont know
what to do
and its affesting the whole family
me and my mum
i know my mum's affected too...
plus her job and all...
so now and then her words hurt
a lot
so i just try to appear emotionless... but am screaming inside
then i go for a run to let it all out
many think im so happy with no worries
you have nno idea what im batting inside
everyday
consciously..unconsiously
but for every bad day there are a few gd days
tt i am thankful for
and i count it as a blessing

past mistakes can never be erased
but they can be corrected
somethings just lie in your mind
or other people's mind
and it cant be helped

though memories do fade after a while
one day evrything will be alright
yea :)
haha

---

of birthdays..brownies and stress reduction kits

2005-05-10T23:16:00.000+08:00

hmm...nuthin much la today...
the usual....
train...
play piano..
study...
do my drawins..
blah blah blah....(oops did i put u to sleep?)
and the usual mood of my dad which resembles
tt of a rhino with an irritating skin rash....

anywayz...yest was jesh's bday...
went out with him + jia hui + calvin
saw kingdom of heaven..
gd movie!
but...
orlando bloom's character has an annoying habit of repeating
the lines of ppl he's met up wth..
its funny at 1st..(is it meant to be?)
then it became downright corny...
lots of blood flying here and there...
a few ( or a dozen more so ) of decapitated heads lying around
well...
it is a war movie... u expect them to hold hands & play ring
around the rosies? i dont think so
anywayz..yea did a lot of walking...shopping...(window shopping)
then ate dinner @ nydc..
the fd there is gorgeous i tell you
i went home dreaming of melted cheese and brownies
i'll go there agn
wen i have inuf money...

well
got back really late...
met a stranghe lady who told me her whole life story...
and... other things...
at least the wait for the bus wasnt boring...

and i know loads od my frens are stressed over the
exams nowadays...
jia you guyz!
keep working hard it'll pay off :)

and for all you stressed out ppl out there
this may help:

peace out...

gals day out

2005-05-06T23:43:00.000+08:00

weee!!!!
today so fun!
fun fun fun! we had fun in the sun! (sings)
erm...
avt..
it rained
really... really..heavily...;p

well went climbin in the morn... managed to improve agn...
yay!!! (runs around in circles)
and Gen joined in too....hehe
then went to meet geet to go shoppin...
yayz!
ate like a nice seaffod & crab subway sandwich @ subway..
wif honry mustard...yums..
then had crepes...
and bought a realy nice top
and
.
.
.guess wad...
.
.
. i look gd in a skirt!
the lady there looked so amused...
she just stood there and giggled
cause geet was like :'ur wearing a skirt! ur wearing a skirt!'
me:'im wearing a skirt! im wearing a skirt!'
and i look gd okay damn u...

haha..
i was so surprised...
im gonna buy it tomo...:x
then yea...
went to take neoprint and play pool...
though i was like sticky & hair messy frm climbin
i admit it was a nice print..hehe

then went home
wad a nice day

even got to noe of a great new band...
Eisley!
so dreamy the music...

anywayz..yeayea..
gd day
:)

falling

2005-05-04T23:34:00.000+08:00

catch me...

Mad at e zoo

2005-05-04T23:10:00.000+08:00

hmmm... yest went to to the zoo... haha.. so fun had Maryann sleep over on sunday...stayed up late,critisized music videos and talked rot absolute rot man.... slpt at 1 am... only to wake up @ 6.30am e nxt morn...to....? wake... cal... up then called him for 1/2 an hr to no avail, y?his phone waasnt wth him... then called his house phone at 7,& his mum sed he sleepinmeet us later...;p oh well...the day was fun...:) super crowded man...the zoo... pract saw every single exhibit there... the baboons being the most interesting....
& the penguins of course
i dun think their v smart... no smart animal will trail paul's kamikazi cap through the glass...
but the little buggers are cute though...
jesh brought along a camcorder... & recorded like awl e animals there... not to mention awl our conversations... the video turned out to be like a documentary..... albeit minus the host & wth and edition of crazy bantering.... somehow... the tiger didn't seem so majestic anymore...
oh yea...
we also experienced the wonderful aroma of nature itself.... like a potpourri ala white rhino and camel leftovers.... an unforgetable experience... hmmm... didnt they say a tigers sense of smell is 10 times tt of a human.... whoa... hate to be them
then the polar bears...the polar bears!!!! cute bundles of white teddy bear fur... with claws & canines of course when dropped into its enclosure the fish swam like a torpedo never seen fins move so fast i think it knew it was gonna die....
...
anywayz..after tt had ban & jerrys.... mango lime sorbet rawks!!! like...whoa... dey should sell tt in supermarkets! but they dun... haiz.... ate so much icecream...tried... dublin mudslide,mint choc chip,phish food,mango lime,very berry, coffee coffee buzzbuzzbuzz,chunky monkey of course we all shared....:\ then took bus 67 all the way home.... 2 hours worth of an 80cents bus ride maryann fell asleep....and she dreamnt a veri wierd dream veri wierd indeed... in her dream... there was a conversation of me & jesh...
me: (singing)wiiniiieee...the poooh!!! a friend of me & yooooouuuuuuuu!!! jesh:let's go eat honey....
i think she stayed @ the sunbear enclosure a leeeeeeetle bit too long... the fumes must have got to her....
by the time we got home it was like ..near 8.... slept like a log last nite woke up late dis morn....@ 10.... onli started ny training at 5 haha....
oh wells...tomo.gonna climb agn... i will be determined...yea! (lks determined) but the secret training, studying,piano & other stuff is wearing me out.... hope all will b better when poly starts...hehe... ;) oh wellz... though im tires.. at least im doing wad i likt now...hahaz biotech...rockclimbin..music...
:)
life's good...
in the right perspective... ;)

MAD @ the zoo!!!

me & ann on e bus...

me & sheryl... near a fountain...duh...

2005-04-29T23:30:00.000+08:00

oh well...another day has past... another day of long training hours... studyin and piano...
will cont working hard...there're so many goals to reach out for...but at the same time
so manythings i keep to myself
haha...
oh wellz...
;p
hmm... yea...the tough times will pay off...all the hard work will...
pay off...
yea! ^_^
(looks determined)
yea...
(i'll keep praying...harhar...yea!)
.
.
..
.
and maryann...
.
.
i din watch king arthur... ut i saw ur blog and decided to try and see who i got...
hehe... i got....

Lancelot's your hunk!

Which King Arthur Hunk is Your Match?
brought to you by Quizilla

hehe... is tt good?
oh well.. he looks gd inuf to me...;p

lookie look!

2005-04-28T00:23:00.000+08:00

haha...did di quiz fer fun(doesnt every1?)...and i like da pic..hehez :P

You are an
assassin.
That means you are a proffessional and do your
job without mixing any emotions in it. In your
life you have probably been hurt many times and
have gotten some mental scars. This results in
you being distant from people. Though many
think that you are evil, you are not. What you
really are is a person, trying to forget your
pain and past. You are the person who never
seems to care and that is why being an assassin
fits you good. Atleast, that's what people
think. Even if you don't care that much for
your victims, you still have the ability to
care and to generally feel. It is not lost,
just a little forgotten. In crowds you tend to
not get to noticed, and dress in black or other
discrete colours. You don't being in the
spotlight and wish people would just leave you
alone. But once you do get close to someone you
have a hard time letting go and get real down
if you loose him/her.

Main weapon: Sniper
Quote: "The walls we build around
us to keep out the sadness also keep out the
joy" -Jim Rohn
Facial expression: Narrowed eyes

What Type of Killer Are You? [cool pictures]
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blessed be the name

2005-04-27T23:53:00.000+08:00

yay...climbin fun...aha...
managed to do a few moves i wasnt able to do before...hope i can keep improvin... i hopehopehope so...
got com in june...
been training hard...bin eating healthier to lose weight too fer the com...
hope it'll b ok...
but then...

the entry form nid parents signature...my parents dun know abt my training...bin doin it on the sly...
dunno how...
haiz...
well..tomo gonna climb again..
&today sumthin gd happened...:)
ive always wanted to hlp others... but lately i seem to be involved in too may pl's probs...plus my own it was overwhelming...
today got gave my strength...
had lots of spiritual attacks too...
i will fight to the end on the side of the lord...
amen!:)

God will help me keep on goin even when i am weak...

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and fer a friend who's having probs too...everythin will be alrite man:)
as u've seen todae all will be well...*hugz*
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.
hmmmmzz...poly startin in 3+ weeks.... yay!
sho' excitin' yea?yea?yea?
*jumps around like a maniac*
*grinz*
gonna join sport climbin...hehe
hope i cn keep up the studyin and get distinction fer piano...
will work hard! (looks determined)
hmmmmzz...
yea..
act life's gd.... i am blessed and will count my blessings...
haha...
yea!

:)

close -call

2005-04-21T21:37:00.000+08:00

woo...long day yest man...was too write me blog...
woke up early to play me piano and study a bit b4 goin out...went to climasia...hahaz...so fun... my arms ache like hell now...
did endurance trainin... realised how weak i've gotten...must train harder! ( looks determined)
must lose oso...bleah... but sloooooooooowli...tt way wth the frequwnt trainin i wun look like muscle woman cause dun hafta lift so much weight..;p
some guy nearly fell on me..lookin back..it was quite amusin
was tired afta the climb so i lay flat out under the 'roof' on da mattress...i looked up and saw dis guy's butt...got a huge shock and scrambled for safety..
the moment i moved away he fell..*thud*
lucky man...
then went to chinese swimmin club...
ran on the treadmill fer a while then took a bath...
realli...realli...needed tt bath.
had to run fer a while cause me mum dun noe i go climbin...:x
( fine! fine! im a lier!!! lierlier pants on fire...or shorts...:x)

then went to meet paul,calvin & jesh watch guess who..
along the way to cineleisure got free choc from one of those 'eye for a guy' guys... and an american idol hp accessory...
how interestin...
hmmmm...hahaz...

then...

went to dis wierd place wif sushi, steamboat and ice cream buffet...
can 'fry' the ice cream...
the ice cream was lousi...-_-'''
but the 'frying' part was fun!!!
haha
then got loads of wierd flavours like.greenapple,almond,walnut,grape,champagne...honeydew...

fun to cook...hahaz...

did all the cooking and left the eating to paul and cal...harhar...
then went fer movie...( i seem to b usin loads of 'then's)
okay lar...
not as funni as i expected it to be...
:then went nydc haf supper...
had dis drink...wad...erm...mango tango...damn nice...
actualli wanted this lemon sorbet drink..
but sold out...
next ime must must try..haha

walked arn hmv fer a while...walk off the food...man...so much food....
found the 'nobody's home vcd...yay! hope the swing girls one comes out soon...;p
afta tt, went home and...

pretty gd dae i must admit...
haha
good dae...:)

---
'What twisted deeds of yonder fate,bring cherubic thoughts of thy face...'-EnGels

PS:if ur wondrin wats Engels, it s character series i created..and tt's the trademark quote i came up wif...haha...;p

lalala...:)

2005-04-18T00:12:00.000+08:00

haha...quite a good dae todae..aharz....
sermon as interestin...and so was cg lesson..gd job cal!
talked to ann a lot todae...so nice ...haha
rite butt-man? :x if ya read my previous blog u sould have seen the superhero persona and stuff...
Maryann is butt-man, with irresistable sexuality as her powers and travels arnd in a shopping cart..while im emo kid,who can cry on command,travels arnd in a cadillac and wth a frying pan for a weapon..-_-'''
her battle cry's supposed to b "MUTHA F***AS!!!"
while mine...she's bin tryin to get me to say it..well..ann..you win...
"TOUCH ME IM HAPPY!!!"

so there...

had a realli gd lunch...at cartel...not too ex too..ahahaha...$8.50...hehehe..wif fee bread...lolz
had a nice time talking...got some church skit comin up...
apparently i look motherly...(is tt gd or bad? i dunno...hmmmzzz....)
Liting maybe my daughter...
(remember to come back early ah girl..or...or...*ahemz*)
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aaaaaaaaaaaanywayz..... then afta tt went cd shopping..and...*grinz*
i finally found my CD!!! ahahahahahaZ! ( lafs hysterically )
Socialburn...ehehe
nxt...
i wan stone temple pilots...i got a whole long list...everyweek i'll save $$ and buy one..ahaz...!

trouble is now i nid $$$ 4 my climbin supplies and fees as well...:x

hmmzz...wen there's a will there's a way!!!!

:):):):)

then came home...mum made my fav...white radish soup...eeeeeeee!!! hahhaazz...then watched kate and leopold..and owrked on my flash animation..

gd dae man,...ah

random quizzes

2005-04-14T15:34:00.000+08:00

gosh i couldn't stop laffin...lolz...

Your Homicidal Rampage! by crash_and_burn

Your name:

Weapon of Choice:

Shovel

Your Favorite Target:

Goths

Your Kill Count:

899,378,108

Your Battle Cry:

"Touch me, I'm happy!"

Years You Spend in Jail:

How Much Money In Damages You Cause:

$228,562,048,368,715

Your Homocidal Insanity Level:: 57%

Quiz created with MemeGen!

Your Superhero Persona by couplandesque
Your Name
Superhero Name	Emo Kid
Super Power	Can Cry On Command
Enemy	Trailer Trash Tom
Mode Of Transportation	Cadillac With Rims
Weapon	Frying Pan

Quiz created with MemeGen!

Generate your Anime Style by Jena-su
Name:
Hair:	Rediculously long, always flowing.
Clothes:	Leather, belts, chains, bondage pants, collars, and tight shirts.
Powers:	Healing
Special Features:	Wings
Sidekick:	The great spirit of (insert character name of choice here), as channeled through whatever item you have onhand at the time.
Attitude:	Upbeat and cheerful.
Weapon:	A sword that's twice as big as you are.

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Cradle

2005-04-12T22:32:00.000+08:00

Cradle

up and down the cradle rocks

flying up

then sinking down

up and down

this pendulous motion

the sick cycle

of life in motion

so low down

no light is seen

time seems to drag

whatever is seen

up and down

the cradle rocks

crashing once again

into the valley deep...

Keinz

2005-04-12T14:17:00.000+08:00

stupid com... alwayz full of viruses...;p

have no idea why my blog keeps creating spaces when i dun want to..aiyo....

hmmms... anyways... feeling a bit down.... bin training for climbin for a while now... but like... i have to draw in secret...train in secret... climb in secret... and help ppl do stuff in secret... why? cause my dad aint likin it... i know he's worried that i'll go off track of be taken advantage of but... i think he needs to try and seee things in my point of view...erm...ah... i dunno......all this hiding and stuff gets too much too handle once in a while...i want my family to support me..the moral support will be very much welcome...

oh well...

not to mention he keeps reminding me of why i failed time and time again before... i know that so very well...

my driving force now is using visualisation, i visualize myself climbing well, doing well in skl..and stuffz... keeps me going...need to score top 10% in poly or i wont make it to NUS...havent talked to any1 abt this cause i dun wanna whine....or sound like i... i cant cope wth stuff...argh...i duno... i really dont know...

keeping a strong front...or well... at least im trying to... ahahaha... oh gawd im complaining so much....like..blahblah..blahblahblah...

seriousely i dun feel very gd abt myself, everyday im just trying to work harder.. dun wanna make the same mistakes...

oh well...

nice to whine once in a while...;p

haha

lolz...

...

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(tt this was kinda wierd, but the meaning's sweet..;p)

Keinz

If you had ketchup in your glovebox

I'd have french fries on my floorboard

If you had an ''im with stupid'' t shirt

I'd have a pro wrestling hat

If you shouted 'Yahtzee' at climax

I'd shout 'Bingo'

If you produced a show called 'Americas Funniest Animal Attacks'

I'd suddenly get mauled by a panda

What im trying to get here at is that somehow, someway

You and i just seem to be made for each other

by:ip from deviantart

Keinz

2005-04-11T23:21:00.000+08:00

wow... the weather is... 'fantastic'...
can fry egg on rock kinda weather...singapore has crazy weather...;p....zzz....
*thud*...eh? aiyo... so drowsy....finally bought a new cd...aha....
got money already.. yea!
din last too long though...:p
went out on sat...met up wth peiwen and shinuan to pass them coupons fer free haircut..aha... i haf too many...
so nice too see them afta so long...met so many of me rock climbing mates...aha... so wierd, thought there was a club outing of sorts... and there wasnt...hehe...lifes interestin
hmmm...finally started training and climbing agn...
gotten so weak ...ar
must train harder...hahaz...
but must give priority to studies und piano...nyah...
yay! Gen can go climbin wth me nxt week... got sum1 to climb wth..aharz...! ;)
need to buy chalk and finger tape...tt means i nid money...:x
hmmmm....*deep breath*HMMMMMMMMMM.....
hmmm...wat else wat else....yea....
going through a pop art stage now...
running out of paint... and no money to buy...ohoh...
why does everything in the world revolve around money...
hope they call me soon to relief again... the $$$ will come in handy...
oh well...yeas...life's pretty gd now... a few up and downs but still gd...:)thnx to the big guy up there and all my buddies...;)
hmmmz... started stdyin for poly too...
trying to cram as much as i can cause i know when poly starts i wont have much time anymore...hope i can keep it up...and yea...
tt i will prioritise so i get inuf rest too...wanna do really well...
lots of pressure...am expected to get distinction on my piano exam and get into NUS after poly.
.tt means i hafta get into top 10%....worried..
at the same time i want to enter a competition for rockclimbing at the end of the year...
haiz...oh well...
trying to keep optimistic...
and a strong front...
hahaz..i'll try my best....
tt's all tt matters...

-----
Keinz
If you had ketchup in you glovebox
i'd have french fries on my floorboard
If you had an 'im with stupid' t-shirt
I'd have a pro wrestling hat
If u shouted 'yahtzee' at climax
I'd shout 'Bingo'
If you produced a show called 'america's funniest animal attacks'
I'd suddenly get mauled by a panda
What im trying to get at here is somehow, someway
you and i just seem to be made for each other...

Keinz

2005-04-11T23:12:00.000+08:00

wow... the weather is... 'fantastic'...
can fry egg on rock kinda weather...
singapore has crazy weather...;p....
zzz....*thud*...eh? aiyo... so drowsy....
finally bought a new cd...aha.... got money already.. yea!
din last too long though...:p
went out on sat...met up wth peiwen and shinuan to pass them coupons fer free haircut..aha... i haf too many...
so nice too see them afta so long...
met so many of me rock climbing mates...aha...
so wierd, thought there was a club outing of sorts... and there wasnt...hehe...lifes interestin
hmmm...finally started training and climbing agn... gotten so weak ...ar...must train harder...
hahaz... but must give priority to studies und piano...nyah...
yay! Gen can go climbin wth me nxt week... got sum1 to climb wth..aharz...! ;)
need to buy chalk and finger tape...
tt means i nid money...:x
hmmmm....*deep breath*
HMMMMMMMMMM.....
hmmm...wat else wat else....yea.... going through a pop art stage now... running out of paint... and no money to buy...ohoh...
why does everything in the world revolve around money..
.hope they call me soon to relief again... the $$$ will come in handy...oh well...yeas..
.life's pretty gd now... a few up and downs but still gd...:)
thnx to the big guy up there and all my buddies...;)
hmmmz... started stdyin for poly too... trying to cram as much as i can cause i know when poly starts i wont have much time anymore...
hope i can keep it up...and yea... tt i will prioritise so i get inuf rest too...wanna do really well...lots of pressure...
am expected to get distinction on my piano exam and get into NUS after poly..tt means i hafta get into top 10%....worried..
at the same time i want to enter a competition for rockclimbing at the end of the year...haiz...oh well...
trying to heep optimistic now...
keeping a strong front...
hahaz..i'll try my best.... tt's all tt matters...

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(found this poem on deviantart, kinda quirky and M-18, but the meanings real sweet...;) )
Keinz
If you had ketchup in you glovebox
i'd have french fries on my floorboard
If you had an 'im with stupid' t-shirt
I'd have a pro wrestling hat
If u shouted 'yahtzee' at climax
I'd shout 'Bingo'
If you produced a show called 'america's funniest animal attacks'
I'd suddenly get mauled by a panda
What im trying to get at here is somehow, someway
you and i just seem to be made for each other...

lotr by george lucas???

2005-04-05T17:58:00.000+08:00

was surfing the net for fun... and i chanced upon this site....
have ya ever wondered what LOTR would be like if it were to be written by another person? well.... wonder no more...

Lord of the Rings, by George Lucas
"Did you ever wonder who your father was, Frodo?"
"Uncle Bilbo was my father, Obi Gan Dalf."
"Your Uncle is a fine man, but he is not your father. Your father was a fine warrior and a great captain, strong in the Force. He was called Sarumann the Wise, and he was a good friend."
"Was? Is he dead?"
"He is no more. It is your destiny to avenge his death, young Baggins."
Lord of the Rings, by Andrew Lloyd Weber
Don't cry for me, Numenoria
The truth is, you never sank down
Beneath those wild waves
Those deep sea wild wavesY
ou never left from
This Middle Earth

The Lord of the Rings, by W.S. Gilbert
(to the tune of "We Sail the Ocean Blue")
We are hobbits of the Shire
And we're off to visit Mordor.
We hope to set the world on fire,
And return here in good order.
We tramp - we tramp -
o'er Middle Earth
And we say our foe's a lizard!
We're full - we're full - of childish mirth
And our leader is a wizard
O yay! O yay! Our leader is a wiz -
O yay! O yay! He definitely IS.

We are hobbits of the Shire...

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woooooooooooo!!!!!!

2005-03-22T20:28:00.000+08:00

yay!!! i got into temasek poly! *phew*...
am so relieved....cant wait for skl to start man...
so exciting...hahaz...
man...started my job stuff and usual routine already...
kinda tiring.. but makes me feel gd..aha..aha....
just realised how so many ppl have a particular kind of mindset...
although quite a few of us dont wanna comform to the society,
we have bin unconcsiously influenced by everythin arnd us...
its tough to stay on track in what we really believe in.
today postings came out... im quite luckyto get my 1st choice agn...
some of my frens didn't...
i hope they can remain where they are..
they've worked so hard to stay in ...
all the best...*hugz*
hmmm....anyway....nice to be kinda busy agn...hahaz...;p
aint gd to b too free...
your mind just wanders and never comes back...(eh?)
finally got sum stuff to draw...
had lk artist block for quite sumtime..
.i knda conformed and tried to do anime, cause lotsa ppl r doin it...
then i realised and well... im back...hahaz :3

yay! had gelare today! but...argh...no rasberry sorbet!!!!
was really lking forwards to that,
anywho...the mango one was not bad either...:P
mmmmm... ice creeaaaammm.....well...
hope all goes okay from now on...its a new beginning to lk forwards too...and a new chance...haha
hmmmz...
well lks like today wad a gd day for me..
hahaz....
(falls)
*thud!*
ow..... .....

you gotta have the swing....

2005-03-22T11:50:00.000+08:00

man... bin so exhausted the past few days... but happy...haha
sat got church games day... supa fun!!!!
hahaz....am now lkin like... chau ta....
if got photos come out i'll post them here haha...;p
oh yar... postins coming out tomo... gd luck ppl!!!
and rach.... u'll do fine..*hugz*

went for a walk wth maryann today.... seems her mum made a really wierd comment...
went sumfink lk dis :
her mum: eh... deborah got bf rite? (grinning)
maryann:wha..?! why do you say that?
mum: she grown up already what.... she has right? (still grinning)
maryann: not that i know of....
mum: (goes to dad) eh... deborah got bf leh.... ( grins some more)
maryann: what the... hey, dun anyhow say la!!!
:X... i really dun know wad was tt about....
(cause i dun have a bf... so... strrrrange...)
oh ya! ohya! on sunday went to see this jap movie called 'swing girls'
fantastic movie!!
go here to see the trailer...-->> http://www.apple.com/jp/quicktime/trailers/toho/swinggirls_large.html
hehe... i wanna see it agn!!!! ( yes its tt gd!!!)
* nodnod*must see! must see!
ahh... im goin mad....
runs off.... ....

lazy days

2005-03-14T21:37:00.000+08:00

Well.... i think i finally got enough rest today...
i slept most of the day...haha, feel so awake now.the day started erm...
as usual my dad ranting...haha
he may have bin a rhinocerous in his previous life...
(sori dad! im just kiddin);p
well, the rantin continued throughout the day,
i know he's worried but i cant help but wonder what goes on in his mind.
i guess we all do things differently.
others love and nurture..
while others feel pressure to b more effective.hehe ;p
well, i guess its like molding clay, wthout the pressure frm our hands it will never become a beautiful sculpture...
din get to go out today,sori guys for the las min cancelin...^_^'''
gd luck fer ur comin exam guys!
hmm...nid to learn new sngs fer me exam, and there's a jazz piece!!! ahaha!!! yay!
and its actuall really nice...hehe...
nice change...;)
tomo should b better....
haha,must wake up earlier to get more things done...hehe

peace

over and out

tp worries

2005-03-13T23:57:00.000+08:00

Man... am so tired... my whole body achin...achin i's tellz ya.dunno y *shrugz*
took a break today... no running, no weights, no gym,no swim, no nuthin...
i need to climb more, seem to be gettin weaker fingers...;p
wah today so fun... just realised how $ makes the world go round....
say what???
kk, fine fine... lurve does make the world go round to k?
haha.. watched hitch! ya gotta watch it man...damn funny...haha...lmao
tomo gonna watch howls movin castle...
hehe, finally get to see me jc buddies agn...;)
wah... still cant get over the fact got so many cd's...i act haf a list....
go purevolume.com to experience da real thang ppl....
crap wth the 'pop-tarts' and euro-trash...argh...
its lk... i wan this, i wan tt, & tt..& tt......
but i cannot find the cd's i wan oso!
argh...eh...hehe... oh well... patience is virtue. (assumes yoga pose):"ooooohm....."
haha... learnt new stuff today.... there's actually a gramaphone alng the way away frm hmv...;p
i never knew it existed.... (we learn new things everyday)
and that they actually have genesis(frm da bible) in lego....
im tryin to imagine lego dinosaurs running around in the garden of eden....
wonder how adam coped wth tt... ...
well, wish me all da best wth me job interview nxt week, bloody skl betta call me soon...;p(hehe)
also pray tt i get into biotech tp k?v worried...
also pray for peace in the family and my mind to be at ease...
and... to my didi... im prayin fer ya... cheer up k? all will b well...:)*hugz*

ciao

listening to: violet by mashlin
thinking:abt space

idiotic bee-haviour

2005-03-12T14:25:00.000+08:00

finally after dunno how long.... i have a proper blog!!!! YAY!!!
*claps retardedly*....
this guy's templates r cool man... nicest i've seen-->>>araglass
anywayz...
well my uncle is finally leavin today, can have my room back...
and my dad wun b in such a bad mood anymore haha.
(for those who havent heard my stories yet, these two not exactl on gd terms)*sigh* long family story... started b4 i was born..haha!
my uncle desn't exactly have gd guest manners... my rms a mess now...;p
bin actin stupid myself too... tryin to get the msg to him tt its not nice to walk in slippers all over the house ( made the floor dirty)
so i've bin actin pretty idiotic too... rite maryann???*wink*
well... i think i've finally hit the mountain peak of boredom..
i've actually bin studyin my maths & bio... o_O'''
cant wait for skl to start... hope i get into temasek poly biotech...pray fer me guys k? :)and to rach, dun worry, im confident u'll remain in tjc...;)
pray fer her too k?:)
i just realised i typed many smileys today...:):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):)
HAH!
anywayz, will b goin fer more job interviews, the hunt fer blingbling has continued...
no skl has called me to relief teach yet...
aiyo...
hope they'll call soon... then can have $$$ buy stuff... :3
and so life goes on... ...and on... and on...

peace out